~My journal~

I haven't updated since feb.5...alomst a year.
Livejournal is dead.


the end.

ahh supermodel sucide was soo freaking awesome last night.
i saw mike,chirstina which i haven't seen her since like the last day of school last year,michelle,alina,nicole,giovana,people from my school,that merch master nate guy and hunter guy was there.everyone was freaking there.crazy!..but yea sms rocked so hard.and rob went and he actually didn't think they sucked which is good stuff cuz they didn't.
i have a really hurtful bruise on my thigh though now.tyler kicked it last night but then i made him kiss it.
haha great stuff.well i got up on stage and danced and it was spiffy.
i caught up on the real world today.ooh well yea alex was in town and spent the night and went to the show with us.fun stuff!..i really did have a great friday last night.
well today is saturday and i was supposed to go to my dads but i dont think im going afterall.i should have bought a ticket to Aurora for tonight.but noo i didn't want to go.oh well.theres always another time.
..i talked to michelle's mom forever last night.she was sitting in her car waiting and i was like omg its michelle's mom and i went and talked to her.michelle titus that is.man her mom is cool,like in a weird way.like i sometimes would think she was creepy and stuff but like all she wants to do is support her daughter and all this great stuff.rad rad.well yea im done with the ramble ramble.

Current Mood: happy
Current Music: prince "kiss"

I went to see the phantom of the opera with Rob.
the movie was interesting,and sometimes it was weird and i laughed.
90% of the viewers in the theater were old people.
nice.real nice.Rob jumped like 4 times.and it wasn't even a scary movie!
ha.but i loved it.i need to see a scary movie with him,so i can see him jumo 10,000 times.
some lady was like cussing at her phone when it rang.nice.real nice.
well thats all for today.

Current Mood: happy
Current Music: head automatica "beating heart baby"

im starting to get sick.what is with this nonsense.I haven't got sick one this winter.grr
well school is okay.same ol same ol.
rob asked me to be his valentine but i said no.
im mean huh.but yea.i will eventually say yes cuz im lame like that.maybe.
i just slept for like 2 in a half hours.insane.
well tyler called last night but when i picked up it did this weird thing and i hung up on everyone i was talking to.
werid stuff.
i finally met my moms friend,melanie,she is soo freakin cool.She has an awesome personality and she acts like me and she like older,like somewhere around my moms age.crazy.but i love it
and her husband is soo cute.ok so hes a hottie.they are so adorable together.
i saw melynda for the first time in a long time yesterday we went baskin robbins and pick up stix,and we did some fudraising for her school,.
shes on leadership and no one showed up and they freaking signed up which is wrong.but shelia came and so did i and we raised a good amount.good stuff.it was for the tsunmi relief fund.

this is the best song ever!

Current Mood: content
Current Music: head automatica "beating heart baby"

I haven't written here in a long time.
A little over a month.
So i went to San Jose over break.
Fun times.
Im not gonna go into detail about everything on here cuz i need to on my diary plus it will take tooooo long.
seeing my cousin was awesome.
me and rob are awesome and its pratically like we're going out we just dont see each other.
its not offcial yet but yea.
and hes taking me out for my birthday.
so cute.
ummm
sooooooo i mentioned a boy named emo sean before well the day after alex,arlene and i went to starbucks and stuff emo sean and i hung out.
We got along.
no i did not have sex with him.
im a good kid.
Yesterday i was ungrounded from being grounded for 2 weeks.
and u know what for?!?!
a fucking hickie.Oh no melanie is gonna have a baby cuz she got pregnant from a fucking hickie.
oh no.

Anyways all day i was planning my 16th bday party and looking for what type of car i want on carmax.com..I am so getting my car there.And i was also planning out all the places im gonna work and their all in the galleria mall.im not a big fan of the galleria but its so close and easy to get to and stuff.Well Im going to mexico for the first month of the summer
score!.im so stoked.cuz the part im going to is soo freaking pretty.oh man i cant wait.
Plus i haven't seen my father since i was 5.its like a reunion,and it shall and will be interesting.
Tata

p.s kelly clarkson "since u been gone" is such a good song.props to her on that one.

Current Mood: happy
Current Music: kelly clarkson "since u been gone"

Well i can't wait to get this week over with.
Then Bam Finals next week and christmas vacation.heck yea
whoop whoop club Dunk is on the 18th the 1st saturday of our vacation.hecka cool.
today in p.e we played badminton cuz of the rain,and it was so funny.they were playing rap music and eric fuchino was playing badminton and hecka dancing in between.oh geeze it was great.
hes a great dancer too.and afrer class i was talking to him about it.geeze hes silly.
well uh yea we got our first of many christmas cards yesterday.good stuff.
arlene told greg our big secret.and know he knows that all us girls think he has a hugeeee butt.
seriously i remember always talking aobut jesse zer's huge butt,but pfft.he has nothing on gregs.
like honestly its huge!..and everyone we told seems to agree.

but yea alex went and to hang out with arlene.and they made out!..arlene likes gangster and blah blah..alex is that nice guy who gets turned down.but she only plays with guys cuz shes all about "booty".so ekkk yea..i didn't know alex was like that.

ha.walking home was interesting and i guess Theo was sitting there in his car yelling my name,and some freshman i believe knows him and was walking near me,was like hey and ran up to theo in his car,when theo was actually yelling to get my attention.but i saw theo and saw hey.ha.i felt stupid for the kid.
so i accientdly feel asleep from 4-6 this evening and i woke up looked at the clock and thought it was morning.
boy i was wrong.

Current Mood: tired
Current Music: some song on this racing game

i know u know everything..and i know u didn't mean it.
right.
uhh everyone if u go to livejournal.com
Frank the goat has christmas lights on him.yay
Happy holiday..

..good days..

Current Mood: headache
Current Music: Michelle Branch "til i get over you"

so friday dorians bday at Red Robin got cancelled cuz she had some family coming down so her dad said she couldn't have it.
Jodie ended up not going to the still life projector so therefore i didn't go.... :( very sad
and i didn't want to hang out with rob.
speaking of him,he acutally called the next day and when we talked he didnt mention anything about why i was mad and all that stuff.Then later that night i brought it up kind of,and he was like ok blah blah im a retard u know about it who cares i want to start new and not go back on it blah blah.
weird.
and nooo one was being ungay last night so i spent my night talking to Ryan on the phone.
i really made him mad at one point..I enjoyed it.
And today...lets all see.

rob is lieing to me.and he did lie to me.he got me mad blah blah blah.as of right now i still like him but hes just a friend in my mind..who knows if something happens then is does,if it doesn't then im okay with that too.

Current Mood: content
Current Music: dashboard confessional "hands down"

Well I had a pretty fucking good week
But last night I thought about it and was like hmmm Rob's myspace account password is probably the same as his yahoo email account.
I know its wrong,but get over it.
And oh man some of the stuff i read was so gross and eek and i couldn't believe some of it.It's rob.
oh geezes.I got all pissy and he messaged me and i being "pissy" and he was like wtf did i do blah blah.
And then he thought i was mad at him cuz he didn't call in the last two days.haha.nnooooo
and then he called me.and i was like dude thats so stupid i would never get mad at u for not calling geezes.
Well i said to just forget about it and stuff and then he got it out of me.and right when i said i went through his inbox right when is said that
he was like oh
and he had nothing to say.ha.mother fucker.well anyways i guess he needed to get off the phone and he said he would call today.im dying to know what hes gonna say.ha
well yea lets see if he even calls.

Im more than likely going to see still life projector tonight.and with jodie.yay!
My ponytail to the side with my pink bow.its great.really.
Bible study was nice this week.We have another Retreat coming soon.yesssssss!

Current Mood: tired
Current Music: sum41 "were all to blame"

oh man today was soo freaking great.lol
ok so everything was like yea yea and biology was blah cuz well..its biology.
And oh man p.e was the funnest ever today!
We're playing handball and you can either do competitive or recreation.
and im in rec.and there is this dumb cunt named katie and she like does that growl grr voice and yells at her team when shes not even doing anything herself.oh its great,really.and Lauren,Dorian and I are in the same english class and we've read Lord of the flies,and we were talking about how we should chop katie's head off and stick it to a cone sharpened at two ends and make it a sacrifice to the sun.ha good times.
and this kid was going to make a goal and Lauren was like "hit it at her head".which she didn't mean it really she was just saying to that the goalie person would be expecting it.
and katie took it all seriously and was like blah blah she would get unconscious and u would have to pay for her medical bill.and the whole time we were laughing so hard i seriously felt like i had to pee.
and we were totally imitating her the whole time and making fun of her.oh geeze it was grand.
and like the game was so intense we were totally acting like savages and we were tackling each other and screaming loud and oh man it was crazy.We had soo much energy and were screaming and everything.
then amy started dancing and stuff.and i feel so many times cuz of the tackling and pushing.and i got the ball so many times and no one could get it from me cuz i was good like that.pfft.anyways oh it was some great times.it was the best p.e period ever!.katie seriously needs anger management and a new attitude.no joke.oh man if you could just see.Well yea greatness!..And i found out that this kid that i knew in 4th grade goes to my school! i always thought it was him but i never wanted to ask and i did and it was him. Payton Pearson.rad!

Emo Sean texted me cuz bexa dumped him and he was like when do u wanna hang out blah blah.. :)
and nathanial,well i only see him as a friend,but lately i've been talking to him on myspace cuz i never see him at school,and we might hang out on saturday.


ahh Rob <33...we always talk.all day.and he asked if i wanted to go see a movie this friday.
i said maybe.and he really wants to go :)..eek! im so happy!
we'll see how it goes.

Current Mood: happy
Current Music: donna lewis "i love you always forever"

Well here is an update.
Ok well i had a pretty good thanksgiving.
LOTS of eating.I had not seen my cousin anthony is awhile and we're close and stuff and that was rad.caught up on some good times.We even watched old barney videos from his mad collection and we still remembered the songs.
Crazy!
but yea.well as i said before rob and i are talking on the phone again and stuff.
I guess he got his phone and internet use taken away and then when he tried to call me he couldn't get a hold of me
which i believe cuz my phone was off.so yeah.i guess theres the answear to why we didn't talk in 700 years.
It was soo cute.He left me a message the on sunday when i was busy getting my new binder,and he was like I love you,ttyl,bye.it was cute!

And also I talked to him today and we were starting to get off the phone and i was like well i guess i will talk to u later.and he was like yea ttyl i love you.and i was like a i love you too :)
oh man.its not like love like we would die for each other.
but its not like "oh i care about u".
i more than care about him,so its like a good sweet I love you.
I remember with my ex boyfriend Jared whenever I said i love u i felt weird and stuff.But with rob its like i love saying it and its how i feel.
i know we're going to go out.
Last night i was talking to Ryan on the phone and he said something about Rob.And i went into this whole story about how God put Rob in my life for a reason.And i dont know fully what the reason is,but its good.and hes a gift.a nice one.and i love it!
but ryan was like whoa thats a great story.
and its great.cuz its not a story about a movie,or some other couple.
its about me.
and Rob.

Current Mood: pleased
Current Music: the music to some guys stripping on tv

Well rob and i were like yea we should hang out on sat instead of friday.
Well its now Saturday..
He came online and told me i call him.
And i was lie oh geeze cuz i haven't talked to him on the phone in 3,000 years.So i called...
and we only talked for 2 hours but oh man.Well he got his car taken away cuz he doesn't have a 3.0..he has a 2.83.close right.well yea and my mom doesn't want to do anything today which includes drving me somewhere.
So im like oh man cuz now we can't hang out.But dude u have no idea.IM SOOO HAPPY
like i haven't talked to him in forever and it was soo rad.and oh man im like a little girl right now.
but im calming down now.
well yea whoo-hoo baking a cake right now.and i want to chill with hayley but my mom won't drive me so yeah.its so close too.bleh oh well.
it was nice being content.but its even better being all happy.. :)

im such a girl.

Current Mood: giddy
Current Music: Taking Back Sunday "Your own disaster"

My night.
Well alex was coming so we could go see the spongebob movie.And right around the corner bam his car catches on fire..Well not like literally but u know what i mean.
Well that sucked cuz i was soo pumped to see the movie tonight.But yea its all good.His friend came and helped him out or whatever and his mom said that he can take her car,so he called me.
But i already changed into my pj's and stuff so i was like nah.Oh well.

Ok i dont know.im weird.I saw rob on myspace "online" so i sent him a message.and we talked for days.And as of now we're going to the movies on Friday. I dont know i really want to go ice skating.
And it has to be in the afternoon cuz hes going to a show at night.weird.but he has wed and thurs. off but im out of town both days so yeah.This should be fucking interesting :)
u know me.i will give details afterwards.

interesting night.lol alex is trying to get me to bring ryan on wednesday.silly kids.
man i remember when melynda and jared were talking on the phone when jared and i were going out,and he said that this song reminded him of me.

Current Mood: blah
Current Music: martina Mcbride "where would you be"

Well hmm the break is going to go by so fast.I know it.I enjoy the awesomeness and resting/relaxing.It's nice.Well wednesday i'm leaving for san jose then im going to madera for thanksgiving on thursday.I'm coming back noonish on Friday.This will be nice because I haven't seen my cousin in madera like in forever.And Him and I are real close,but we're not phone talkers.It's so amazing cuz like hes a guy,im a girl and we like sit there and tell each other everything.I love it.He's only a year younger than me so ya.

My non-existant love life:
Well lets see.Like always i'm not searching for a boyfriend but if one pops up,cool.I don't really like relationships anyway,and there has been only on person that made me want one.lately hes been bugging to hang out too.Well im one of those people who wants something,and when it comes i get scared and stuck.
But it made me like awwish cuz at the underground on friday there was a freakin butt load of hot guys and they all brought their girlfriends.One guy who was like ahhish,more of one of those gothic kind of guys kinda,but he has his ugly girlfreind with him and he started moshing and all that stuff then he came back all hot and tired looking and he smiled and kissed his girlfreind.it was cute.Also this one guy who was like ahhh hotttt like nerdy glasses poofy hair hot..yum.Well anyways he was all banging his head to them music and all into it,then his girlfriend looked at him and he gave her the cutest smile and kissed her like it was the last time he would ever get to.it was adorable.It made me think of how much I want someone..Ass/lust with always be there..But those special people won't.and its high school its not like their gonna last forever,so enjoy it while it lasts.I want it.bad.


Ha..I guess hayley ran into John (the Mmm one),what a fucking ass face,well they talked and he was like tell her whats face i said hi.ha.he knows he remembers my name but of course wants to prove something in front of his dumb friends.Well i told her to tell him,if she sees him before i do,that he needs Jesus in his life and I don't talk to non-christians.hmm

I'm in the mood for something to do.Like go see the spongebob movie or something..Nothing like party,not in that mood.hmph.

Current Mood: thoughtful
Current Music: jesse McCartney "Beautiful soul"

Well Friday night was the supermodel suicide and of course i was stoked.
And there was all the lovely people there that i always see and hang out with when they play at the underground.Well Jessica came along with me and Hayley.
If i had a cowboy hat i would have looked like a cowgirl and liked it.
Well anyways everyone was there.yea.
So like the first bands were actually pretty good.Ha and those punk El dorodo hills kids were there to see Hanover saints which they rocked by the way (EL DORODO HILL KIDS ARE MY FAVORITE!!!)
And they were doing their little "circle" thing and this lovely guy named Anthony who is a new kid a roseville high school this year placed me in front of him so i wouldn't get hit.What a nice boy.
And some guy like pushed me and i charged after him and like hecka pushed him and i guess it looked funny cuz Anthony's 3 friends were laughing and after the show we were talking and they were like yah we were laughing cuz ur so hardcore blah blah..I'm a G,what can I say.
Well supermodel suicide was so freaking awesome like always and ahhhh..
Mike and Ruben of course were the crowd surfing stage diving kids,and i even saw ian from roseville there and he was crowd surfing for a long time.insane.
And Kayla even crowd surfed man shes so awesome.The set wasn't that long but i still enjoyed every minute of it.This even boy from my english class was there and he lost his hat,but i guess it was all good.
Of course i was in the front shaking what my momma gave me and going crazy.man my hair was all up and stuff before and then after it was all saggy and like about to fall out of the rubberband.

Well last time i got away with 1 bruise but this time my left knee has a huge red one.And my left knee looks so gross.It has a huge red bruise and then this huge black dark purple big hickie looking thing.and in the middle it started peeling.And then i have several bruises on my right thigh.Crazy!
there was this these things poking out of the front of the stage and since i was getting smushed on the stage my knee kept slamming into them hella hard..It hurts now but it happens.oh well.


Sooo we like met this Chelsea chick for like 2 minutes then went to her house in auburn to party.
it was a lot of older people,but like always it was cool.it was very interesting and me and jessica ate some really good pie.ahh..
Emily got drunk and the chelsea girl like stripped emily down.I'm taking it the guys enjoyed that.
And this john kid.i swear hes gay.besides the fact that hes a women hater.Well those were some good times and another story to tell but right now i will spare the lame details. but yeah we actually got home at 3 which was earlier than i expected.good stuff.

Current Mood: sleepy
Current Music: tv

Hmm Supermodel Suicide show tonight..yay!
I am so excitied,I'm gonna dance like no other. I love SMS shows because theres all this dancing and happyness,and people moshing,and the pushing and shoving and of course
the lovely crowd surfing.

The wonderful Lauren Ball is going to cut my hair.It's like half an inch past my shoulder and i want it shorter,cuz i love when my hair is short.I can't stand when I have long hair.
I also decided im going to put some blonde highlights in over break.
Yay my thanksgiving break is offically in session.yesss


The other day a motivation speaker came and he was like young and hot an funny so it was great.everyone loved him.
Morp is Woodcreek's version of sadie hawkins.I'm not going.It's in December.bleh.
It's so cute though cuz some girl gave Kyle this fish bowl with a real fish in it,and it said out of all the fishes in the sea will u got to morp with me.
and kenny's nice ass car was filled with tons of colorful ballons saying Morp?.and then it said pop one of the ballons to find out who i am.
And this one dude had all this writing written all over his car saying go to morp with me.
cuteness.

Current Mood: tired
Current Music: tv

I'm not having bad school year.Its okay.
But for the previous week that one thing,came and bit me in the ass and im mourned over it and listened to all my sappy love and break up songs.It happens.

But now after a week of it,im over it,and Im content.
And no i did not just break up with a boyfriend or anything.
It's been like a year since i had a boyfriend
Ha Jared,good times.

I'm tired.It's early but i should go to bed early.yay.

"we were doing fine..we were doing nothing at all."

Current Mood: content
Current Music: Dashboard Confessional "Hands down"

I was supposed to go san fran today but didn't cuz i didn't get to my house early enough.Oh well Arlene and I are still gonna go.Really we are going to san jose to see her bf,and then im going ot san fran which is near san jose to just be there,cuz i love it there.

Well today i spent my non school day just wasting it away.oh well.I really dont want to go to school tomorrow.I am going to quit speech and debate team.its overratedly stupid. U dont even debate.U make up a lame speech and "break" or "place".and when they actually started talking about it i was like whoa this is just like a second english class but doing a so called competition.So lame.No Joke

LAST NIGHT was soo weird. Like they come to pick me up and guess whos driving??...Victor from spanish class last year.And i was like woah.We didn't even really talk last year though.And then someone was like "Hey its the cheerleader chick from drama",i look and its fucking Chris Debrocky.Weird stuff eh.
Well he rememberd my name,even though we never talked in drama.Well we went to Richard's house which was fun.Very cool times. Jessica was there and shes pretty rad,Carla came and shes so freakin cool. Well we hung out,some guys got drunk.Oh man this one guy got so wasted it was funny.But he was sleeping so yeah.It was interesting but i guess i wont get too much into detail cuz yeah. Well Victor and I actually talked and he is actually pretty cool. And chris of course is same ol' same ol'..Well in the morning french toast was made.I didn't eat it though,I stole the box of honey Teddy Grahams.ahh very yummy stuff.
well what can i say,good times.
Game tomorrow.should be interesting.i wonder if jill is going cuz well u know.oh my.


ok so i prank called him last night.i heard the hello and hung up.during the past week like maybe 5 or 6 times i called just to listen to his voicemail,cuz i was being gay and retarded.his phone was off so i didn't have to sit and wait for the rings.ahh bishaw! totally bishaw.

Current Mood: exhausted
Current Music: Taking back sunday "Your so last summer"

I was thinking about it.And i had to let this out.



I miss ur name across my phone's screen
I miss my phone ringing and me knowing it was you
I miss ur "hello lovely"
I miss ur laugh
I miss the way u called urself a loser
I miss the way u thought i hated you
I miss the sweet things u would say
I miss thinking about ur perfection
I miss your messages on my phone
And i really miss listening to ur message over and over just to hear your voice
I miss ur stupid questions
I miss your nonsense
I miss u being wrong and me right
I miss our deep conversations
I miss naming our kids
I miss bragging about your greatness
I miss your "making fun of me"
I miss you calling me at 10 and not hanging up till 5am
I miss hearing ur "tired" voice
I miss ur bob barker nonsense
I miss my differnet unique loser
I miss you

And now thats its done.im content.yayayay!

Current Mood: content
Current Music: the tv

yes i get my daily horoscope through email and there has been like maybe 2 or 3 times where its been like uhh liar!..other than that its always right.Well it doesn't say what directly happens its kind of like i'll read it and then at the end of the day i'll be like whoaah! my horoscope was soo right.

well today:
If you're single, be prepared for that to change -- and soon. You're
due to meet someone just as fiery and outgoing as yourself. If you're
attached, expect a new friend. A good friend.

haha thats funny considering i was talk to sean (emo kid) earlier today. And i told him that i was gonna go take my frustration out and run,and i did.(even though i didn't have any frustration).Well yea.
Man i have to study for my biology test tomorrow.Thats what i have to do for homework tonight.Not fun!
Doing homework like worksheets and stuff is so much more easy and less time consuming.geezes.

Well last night i could not fall asleep for crap.like seriously.and theres a lot more but i don't want to say.I got all sad cuz i started thinking about things and then yea.it was stupid.but he won't know.so ya.Oh My i was soo craving cookies all weekend and i ate some today at lunch.very yummy and very cool..

Current Mood: tired
Current Music: Dashboard Confessional "Need"